"Time to use the big hammer"



Not that Hammer



Yes, those were the words Dr. Y used.  I like that image.  Anyhoo, our appointment went really, really well.   Dr. Y is extremely hopeful for us, and said, “You’re young.  You’re healthy.  You will have babies.”  I feel like getting that tattooed on my forehead.  It was nice to hear!  I’m not looking forward to the shots, but I’ll do it!  10 days of shots.  Wowza.  Anyone have any ideas for how I can learn to love shots?  Or at least not be so terrified of them?  Seriously.  I’m a little terrified. 

Terrified, but one thing Dr. Y told us was that the shots do not have the same terrible side effects as Clomid – NO mood swings, no depression, no thin uterine lining, etc.  YES!!!!!!!!!!!  That news made my year.  HOWEVER, there are other side effects – Like Ovarian hyperstimulation and increased chances of multiples.  Basically, this means that I’ll be monitored much more closely than I was with the clomid.  The dosage of drugs is monitored and altered if need be throughout the cycle based on the ultrasounds and blood tests.  If I generate more than 3 eggs, they will cancel the cycle.  This freaks me out a little bit because I remember my girlfriend having to cancel several of her cycles due to this side effect. 

But I’m getting a little ahead of myself.  Before the shots, Henry and I need to do our tests.  This was a big sticking point for me because I seriously didn’t feel like going on hormones to get my period to start before doing the hysterosalpingogram.  But, guess what???  Because I’m a special case – a freak of nature if you will – I do not have to.  I can pretty much go and get the test whenever I want.  So, that is awesome.  I finally found one benefit with my amenorrhea.  Thank YOU brain tumor! 

The only bit of bad news, and it could actually turn out to be good news, is our insurance.  Our insurance does not cover any of the medication or ultrasounds, but Dr. Y mentioned as he was leaving that our stuff should not be billed as “infertility” even though we are going to an infertility clinic.  His reasoning is that my stuff is all a side effect due to a brain tumor, not a classic infertility case.  He said that we should fight the insurance company, and he’d even been willing to draft something to them if we get push back.  I guaranty we will get push back, because I tried to tell them this last year.  But, perhaps with his help, we may get somewhere.  Maybe even get reimburse for the crap we paid for last year????  That would be amazing.  The pessimist in me thinks that it will be a whole lot of fighting, a lot of hold time, transferred calls, and slow going without much result, but we’ll see.

What was really amazing was that I truly felt that Henry and I were together today.  We had our questions answered, and Henry left with the packet of information ready to call our insurance company, ready to schedule our appointments, ready to get this show on the road!  I don’t have to do anything!   He’s pretty much taken it upon himself to shoulder most of the stress, and leave me out of it.  I am good with that!!!  Not only that, but he told me today that he plans on coming with me to my ultrasound appointments.  His support, especially in that area means the world because that was the hardest thing for me at our last go-around.  My ultrasounds last year rarely went well.  Whenever I went in, it was generally bad news, and it was usually difficult for me to get a hold of Henry because he was at work  (and when I would get a hold of him, he couldn’t talk because, ya know, he was AT WORK).  I spent many days crying in my car, alone, before heading back to work.  It’s an unbelievably wonderful feeling to know that I will be supported in this adventure.

It’s weird to thing that this time last year, we were putting the brakes on infertility due to a need to stop hemorrhaging $$$.  This year, we’re starting again.  Maybe by this time next year we’ll be parents??  Maybe?? J
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Oh, and more cool news, I had Chinese for lunch today...lookie at my fortune cookie.  Yippy!