A little bump along the way (but not THAT bump)...

So, you know what really sucks?  Having to take pregnancy tests over and over and over again just to see another BFN!  Why do I continue to do this to myself?  I have to.  My endocrinologist told me to.  I don't have periods, and no one can tell me when/if my ovaries will ever start working again.  Therefore, I could miraculously become pregnant and not know it.  So, once a month, I take a test.  I know it's going to be negative.  I am painfully aware of this reality every single time, and yet somehow, I am completely crushed every time.  Yes, I am learning to maintain a much more optimistic attitude (see previous posts), but nights like tonight really suck.  As a double whammy, another high school friend just announced their pregnancy on facebook.  *sigh*  When can I just buy a ticket to pregnancy island??  When will it be my turn????