Learning to Dance in the rain...

I've been really working on following my new red carpet philosophy, and, I'm not gonna lie, I have noticed a HUGE improvement in my attitude.  It's becoming easier to stop in the middle of everyday moments and praise God.  Once you do that a half dozen times in one day, it's amazing to see how you can't help but be happy and unbelievably touched by awe and gratitude.  I had one of the best days yesterday.  A very satisfying work day, followed by an amazing evening spent with some of my new girlfriends. Somewhere in the mist of that (probably during the time I was supposed to be working...maybe that's why my day was so great!! :)), I found the most amazing etsy shop for me!  The artist is Ninjagrl and she specializes in making these amazing pieces of art featuring turtles! 

I LOVE this one!  As soon as I saw it, I couldn’t help but think that it was my patronus and I battling against this damn infertility beast. 

Isn’t it fun?!  I love that she kinda looks like me -- Skinny with a weird sort of cowlick thing on the back of her head.  LOL.  Yesterday was the best day to stumble upon this shop.  I don’t know what was going on in the universe, if there was a glitch in the Matrix, or what, but I must have seen 30 tampon commercials.  In the past, these commercials depressed the heck out of me.  Amenorrhea is a bitch., but, I’m not gonna lie, it was nifty in the beginning.   A lack of periods means never having to worry about back up protection, cramping, bloating, etc.  But, after 5 years, it has become alienating.  It’s hard to hear other women complain about their monthly “gift, and not being able to relate.  Not to mention, it’s hard to even hope for pregnancy when you’re missing one of the essential pieces of that dream – namely, ovulation.  But, I found this little etsy shop with these adorable paintings, and after viewing all those stupid tampon commercials, I felt better!  I feel like my little patronus is fighting for me throughout this hold pattern.  We have 2 months until we go back to the infertility docs, and I’m just working on my attitude in the interim.  Besides, I’m sure I’ll have a blast enjoying those drug induced periods once we start up on all the fun fertility drugs again. Ha!